Alright... I know I've been slacking. Things have been a little hectic and somewhat distressing. I tend to "clam up" in such times, hoping that things will get better faster that way! So far it hasn't worked, but I'm stubbornly determined! :)
So, a few weeks ago we had to put Magnum down. He had gotten really sick, and there wasn't much that could be done besides exploratory surgery. We put him on a special diet and hoped for the best. He seemed to be doing a little better, but then he was bitten by a rattlesnake. In his state there was no way he would have made it, and no way I wanted to put him through anything more. So, we put him down. I still cry every day. I know... he was a dog, but that dog got me through a lot of really rough times. I spent lonely nights cuddled up on the couch with him while William was deployed (both times). He sat patiently, and whimpered his concern while I cried my way through the difficulties of infertility. He was part of the family, and I am truly grieving the loss.
On another note, I have really been struggling with my body's inability to function properly. Many of you know that I have thyroid issues couples with PCOS. This dynamic duo is incredibly frustrating. To give you an example, let's go back to 2005. I was diagnosed with PCOS and hypothyroidism in late January. They first wanted to address my thyroid issues and put me on synthroid. It was HORRIBLE! My symptoms got MUCH worse. I was so tired I would sleep for 14-16 hours, and even when I was awake I couldn't focus. I gained over 50 lbs in less than 8 weeks! When I went back, the docs said it wasn't my medicine!!! Really? I'm just being THAT lazy? I didn't know that was physically possible!!! Anyway, my PCOS only contributed to the problem, by helping me sport a patchy mustache, brightly glaring pimples, and radical mood swings! I was gorgeous AND pleasant!!
Anyway, after I had Wyatt, my problems came back full force, and I haven't been able to get them under control. However, I am on a determined mission to take the control back! :) After a LOT of research, I am on a new regimen of natural alternatives to help me balance myself. I am also on a mission to get into better shape. I'm hoping the stuff I'm taking for my thyroid will help balance out my metabolism. So far, I've lost 10 pounds and just over an inch! I hate devulging things like this to other people, because I worry that they will constantly "judge" how I'm doing ("Looks like she missed a workout or two!"). However, by posting my results here, I will be somewhat more accountable. So, my loyal family and friends, if you have similar goals, post your results and let me know I'm not alone!!! :) Hopefully, next time I see each of you, I will be in my skinny jeans, and will be a balanced, normal individual!
