Alright... I know I've been slacking. Things have been a little hectic and somewhat distressing. I tend to "clam up" in such times, hoping that things will get better faster that way! So far it hasn't worked, but I'm stubbornly determined! :)
So, a few weeks ago we had to put Magnum down. He had gotten really sick, and there wasn't much that could be done besides exploratory surgery. We put him on a special diet and hoped for the best. He seemed to be doing a little better, but then he was bitten by a rattlesnake. In his state there was no way he would have made it, and no way I wanted to put him through anything more. So, we put him down. I still cry every day. I know... he was a dog, but that dog got me through a lot of really rough times. I spent lonely nights cuddled up on the couch with him while William was deployed (both times). He sat patiently, and whimpered his concern while I cried my way through the difficulties of infertility. He was part of the family, and I am truly grieving the loss.
On another note, I have really been struggling with my body's inability to function properly. Many of you know that I have thyroid issues couples with PCOS. This dynamic duo is incredibly frustrating. To give you an example, let's go back to 2005. I was diagnosed with PCOS and hypothyroidism in late January. They first wanted to address my thyroid issues and put me on synthroid. It was HORRIBLE! My symptoms got MUCH worse. I was so tired I would sleep for 14-16 hours, and even when I was awake I couldn't focus. I gained over 50 lbs in less than 8 weeks! When I went back, the docs said it wasn't my medicine!!! Really? I'm just being THAT lazy? I didn't know that was physically possible!!! Anyway, my PCOS only contributed to the problem, by helping me sport a patchy mustache, brightly glaring pimples, and radical mood swings! I was gorgeous AND pleasant!!
Anyway, after I had Wyatt, my problems came back full force, and I haven't been able to get them under control. However, I am on a determined mission to take the control back! :) After a LOT of research, I am on a new regimen of natural alternatives to help me balance myself. I am also on a mission to get into better shape. I'm hoping the stuff I'm taking for my thyroid will help balance out my metabolism. So far, I've lost 10 pounds and just over an inch! I hate devulging things like this to other people, because I worry that they will constantly "judge" how I'm doing ("Looks like she missed a workout or two!"). However, by posting my results here, I will be somewhat more accountable. So, my loyal family and friends, if you have similar goals, post your results and let me know I'm not alone!!! :) Hopefully, next time I see each of you, I will be in my skinny jeans, and will be a balanced, normal individual!
4 comments:
Laureena~ only you can make having a mustache sound like fun! What a good sport! Those silly hormones, you can't live with 'em and you can't live without 'em. I'm so sorry about your dog. I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to share certain things...but it is somewhat liberating, right? Thank you so much for your sweet words of understanding and encouragement...I wish you lived a little closer, I just love ya!
My Sweet sweet Reena Fae, O how I just love you to pieces. YOU are so wise beyond your years sometimes it scares the pants right off of me (O quick picturing that scary picture in your head, not really they actually stay on, but you do totally amaze me with your sageness [is that a word- if not I think it should be])Anyways... you are terrific and I love you. I am so glad that you are able to look at yourself and then search for what will work for you. It is different for all of us and you will find the answers you look for I am confident of that. I hope that you will look to me for a source of support and love and know that I will help in any way I can. I am fighting a battle of the old age bulge right now. I lost some weight but have gained a portion back so now I feel like I am just trying to regain back to where I was. It is frustrating to say the least, but I will keep on keeping on and try to conquer!! Love you tons and tons. (by the way thanks for the post, I've missed you)
Ok I know I already posted on this one but it is your HAPPY BIRHTDAY today and I want to wish you a very happy day and let you know I am thinking about you and love you!!! Aunt Nana
I lost your blog. And now I found it again. So I'm the one catching up. I had no idea you were going through these health struggles.
I always worry about blogging about weight-loss goals or updates. I also don't blog pictures of me because then people will realize how big I am. But there's no hiding it- even from me. Sometimes I think, I'll post gradual pictures (partials of me- mostly of kids) then BAM! hit them with a full on chunk-o pic of me. And then they can watch the slimming down transformation. Yeah, I'm a spazz. But anyway, sad thing is, after I lost a bunch of weight after the twins were born, I put back on twenty pounds. 20! *sigh* I think a lot has to do with this strange hormone changes I'm going through.
Anyhow, I love catching up with you family. Can't wait to read more!
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